14 days at work, and now I am on sick leave. It did happen yesterday, but I don't know how or when. I'll think it must be at morning - beautiful morning by the way, probably first "Paradise ready" for this year (and my heart did cry) - everything was so slippery after cold night and first sea container was filled for somereason horisontal way, so I did have to lift everything up and even climb on them to get that done, and my feets and hands and everything did slide few times quite badly.

Anyway, afternoon I did get increasing pain to my lower back and when I did get back home, even walking was really hard. No need to say that our new elevator was broken - second time after it's completed at last autumn. Was quite sweet surprise to climb to fourth by staircases in situation where walking even flat surface was really painful. Yes, I did feel myself really old again.

At night I did first wake at 3 a clock to terrible twinge when I was changing my position. After wiping tears away from my eyes I did fall sleep again, some kind sleep. And wake again same way in half an hour. I did also have to go to toilet, which was really hard thing to do, when left feet did try to get away with every step sending hard and heavy twinges from my lower back to left knee. Even my girlfriend did wake up to check if I am alright, which is something that she normally never do, she sleeps so deep. I did take some painkiller, but didn't sleep anymore at that night.

At morning I did call to work that I can't come today (my boss was sure it is sciatica), and bit later I did go to see a doctor. Who was sure that it can't be because I weren't sure which time that "accident" did happen. Anyway he did wrote me two days sick leave and stronger painkillers - it is just a twist, nothing more.

I hope he is right even now it feels bit... I don't know, I've gone through few twists before, but none of them have been even nearly this painfull. I still can hardly walk and every step still sends those evil twinges... I feel even older.

I just wonder how an earth I could have notice when that thing did actually happen, because that job is so hectic and there ain't minute without getting hit or feeling pain somewhere. That doctor didn't have idea, not at all for what kind of job it really is, and I obviously weren't able to tell it clearly enough.

No need to say, that when I did get back from doctor someone was moving furnitures here, so I did have again climb by stairs. I did feel really old.

Good thing is that boss did take this really nicely - I of course feel kind of guilty for this and I also understand what this must look for other employers; just two weeks at work and then to sick leave at thursday, just before longer weekend. I also understand how one missing man makes everything even harder, so I feel guilty and I am quite affraid of getting back to work at tuesday night, atmosphere can be quite... I hope it ain't but I still stress that.

Oh yes and I did finally get my employment contract, and I did get it last just to end of august, not to end of november how we did first plan. Did feel "quite strange" to ask SHORTER contract because in this town finding a job is... Miracle. Actually there were just news from here - jobs have decreased and unemployment rate is over 13%...

But shorter contract is nice because if I want to continue then, I can continue, work won't end did say he. Feels mentally easier, but I know that august is very far, far away too and I will miss so many photographs. But that is price of life, ain't it?

Now I must get back to bed, sitting here doesn't feel too good right now.